Saturday, September 13
12:37 AM
been feeling kinda down these few daes..haha..but itx ok..guess i will b fine soon..hopefulli soon enuff 2 prepare 4 my prelims..cant let my parents down again..but 1st i gotta cross dis hurdle..all will b fine after dis..juz gotta b strong haha..guess i wud try 2 act as though nth eva happened..itx too painful 2 rmb..yups having emaths on mondae..tink i m so gonna die..if onli i can juz disappear in2 thin air one dae..guess everyting wud b much betta..no exams..no troubles..no stress..haha..cant wait till Os r finalli over..kinda afraid dat i wud start losing frenx..hmm..cuz itx e onli pillar of support 4 mi..my sis wud b going over 2 aussie 2 further her studies earli feb nxt year..e tot of it kinda scares mi..haha..cuz i wud b sumwad all alone here..after moving out 2 live wif my dad n all..i dun seem 2 haf anione left..everyting is juz slipping awae..far far awae..looking at pictures taken wif my mum n sis..kinda pain mi 2 noe dat by nxt yr..all 3 of us wud b living in separate places..hmm..but itx ok..guess i can take all dat..juz dun understand dat y do families haf 2 separated n all..hurts kuite a lot..haha..wadx more my studies r not realli fabulous..but i haf difficulty trying 2 study wif all e stuff going on ard mi..juz feel so helpless..i realli dun wanna b like dat but i cant help it..i feel so alone n all..okies guess i betta stop b4 pple reading dis die of depression..haha..shall blog again soon..*huggies*