Monday, October 6
3:29 PM
*sobs* i feel so sick..tink i m dying..hmm..hopefulli i can juz die like dat..haha..i m running a fever n having stomach flu..it juz feels so so so bad..n e weatherx so freezing cold..was practicalli shivering n shaking in skool..wanted 2 juz cum home but my dad could not fetch mi nor allow mi 2 go home..hex such an ass..it was so embarressing when i cried in skool 2dae..haha..cuz i kinda missed my mum..miss e wae she wud haf taken care of mi when i was sick..missed e wae she wud haf handled stuff..missed e wae she took care of mi when i had stomach flu in sec 2..in e past dere wud b so mani pple 2 take care of mi when i was sick..but now no one is ever dere..no onex eva home..no one eva cares..no one 2 get my meals 4 mi..no one 2 tok 2 abt my prob..no one 2 vent out stress 2..e feeling pretty much sux..i feel so "by myself"..but wadeva it is i shud not haf cried..it wun help at all..wun change tings..n most imptly cant bring back time..guess i shall go rest now..i m pretty much aching everywhere..life sucks.