Monday, January 16
12:17 AM
i just need an outlet to vent everything.
so please bear with me.
its not me to actually blog about very personal stuff.
but i just need to let it all out.
i just realized ive gt a serious problem with myself.
its like i find it hard to open up to people.
yeah and thus im in misery.
oh well, break ups are inevitable and given my personality,
i should very well have no problem coping.
BUT!
it doesn't seem so this time.
i know that everything has ended, but it doesn't feel like it.
i really don't know why.
life for me now, is on a standstill.
is it because i can't let it go?
i really don't know for sure.
i just can't really pin point the problem.
somehow deep inside i really wished that he will do something to salvage things.
but the painful truth is that i know he won't.
i know people will start telling me that i should "just let it go" or that "he's not worth it".
if things were so simple, breakups wouldn't be so agonizing.
its like even though my mind says to move on,
but my heart just has to disagree.
im currently at the crossroads between my mind and heart.
and the thought that our one year anniversary falls on my birthday,
just doesn't help either.
and im gonna have a lonely valentine's day again this year.
so kind souls out there, please feel free to ask me out ok?
i need all the help i can get right now.